i don't know.

something feels weird. like. change. i was doing a myspace survey & there was a question of what i would do to change the world. it got stuck in my head for the longest time. there's so much to change, ya know ? there's the kids in africa who are dying from aids & poverty. there's the horrible economy that's causing everyone to lose their jobs. & there's the case of swine flu that people are freaking about. (once someone sneezes, it's like "HOLYCRAP. IMMA CALL THE HOSPITAL.") last friday when kevin was taking me home, we were talking about drama filled crap. & he was like "yeah, don't live a double life." & stuff like that. and the thing is, i've tried to change, but it just never works. i don't know. but i think it's time to live life to the fullest as if you were gonna die tomorrow, ya know ? i honestly do NOT like the life i live. sure, i'm talked about - sometimes good, sometimes bad. i wouldn't say i'm feared, but people just don't mess with me. i come off as a bitch most times. and. i. really. don't. like. it. i think it's the fact that i've been relying on myself all this time. maybe i should let God take it into his hands. yeah. i think i will. bee tee double you, i kinda feel weird posting this blog. it's probably my first serious blogpost. & happy birthday evelyn ! hold me up to that guppy's trip (:

21 DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL, BEEZY.