Sunday, February 9, 2014

4:14 AM

Sometimes I wonder if I'd rather be the reacher or the settler in a relationship. 
Being the reacher means living in fear of the other realizing they can do better & leaving you, whereas settling means being in a relationship knowing you could do better. So which one's better?

I'd like to think we both reached & settled on different terms, but maybe that's where we went wrong. Maybe things would have worked out better if we both reached.

I know I'm repeating myself, but God, I hate distance.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

1:11 AM

So this is it, huh? To be honest, I didn't think it'd end like this. For some reason I had hope that we'd actually try & make it all work. That you'd finally give in to your feelings & would say, "Screw distance." But yeah, I guess whatever happens, happens for the best. Frustrating how we both kind of just let it fizzle out though. 

You have no right to be upset with me, because from what I remember, you were the one who refused to let anything happen. You can't just talk to me like we're something, date me when I go to you, & then just let things go back to the way they were once I left. And whatever happened to you coming to me? I'm so sick of always pulling through for you when you won't even acknowledge what I am to you. Let your stupid pride down every once in a while, will ya? Don't you dare say I didn't do anything for you because I have done nothing but try to make you feel like someone actually cares for you from here. You let me go, slowly but surely, & you have no one to blame but yourself.

Maybe we're better off without each other. Or maybe in a couple of years, we'll bump into each other & try to make it work then. Who knows. It's been fun for now though, I guess. Have a nice life.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

8:28 PM

I'm scared what happened turned out to be intentional on my part. I keep telling myself it was you or it was just something done subconsciously but the more I think about it, I'm pretty sure we both wanted it to happen & that terrifies me. Now I'm stuck in this awkward situation & I wanna hold it off til September so I can figure things out but we both still have the summer together & algjseofbhuasf;noa;fuh.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

2:27 PM

Good people, good vibes, good times these past couple of weekends.

Way too excited for the summer!!

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

1:28 AM

A list of bands/artists I'd like to see in concert before I die:
  • The Killers
  • The Xx
  • Mumford & Sons
  • Norah Jones
  • Florence + the Machine
  • Zedd
  • Phoenix
  • Two Door Cinema Club
  • Ellie Goulding
  • Coldplay
  • Of Monsters & Men
  • Iggy Azalea
  • Passion Pit
  • Joshua Radin