"Sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to how they used to be."

Well what if you give up right when things are about to turn around? It's like a double edged sword, isn't it? If you don't give up, you're only going to hurt more. You might be waiting for something to happen, only to have it not, leading you towards disappointment. But if you do give up right before things start going back to the way they were, then you'd be missing out on what was & what could have been once again. Hanging on for so long would seem like such a waste. 

I hate these 50/50-type decisions. That neverending battle between your brain & your heart. When you're stuck right in the middle of two things & you're constantly fluctuating between them. Decisions like these make me such an indecisive person & it frustrates the shit out of me when I put so much thought into them.

11:43 PM

If you’re gonna be a bitch about things, I’ll be a bitch right back. I’m done giving in all the time, trying to make things better between the two of us. Your happiness doesn’t mean anything to me anymore & I’m not afraid to play fire with fire now. 

Two can play at this game.

11:39 PM

So it's okay for you to give me attitude, but the second I give you attitude, you decide to not talk to me until I "cool down"? What kind of logic is that? If it weren't for you, we wouldn't be in the dilemma we're in right now. I've been trying so hard to not blame you, in fact, I've been putting the blame on myself this entire time. And for what? For you to save face? No. I was willing to do anything for you. You were the one person I put everything aside for, even when I had other important things to pay attention to. And this is how you repay me? I feel like you've taken our friendship for granted. What happened to always being straightup with each other? To being able to read each other like a book? Hah, I guess a lot of things have changed this summer. Not gonna lie, I'm pretty sad about this, but I should have seen it coming this entire time.

9:40 PM

You're the shittiest best friend in the world, yet for some reason, I can never stay mad at you for a long period of time. You piss me off 75% of the time we hang out (which is extremely rare, might I add) & the other 25%, I'm just bitter at how you never make time for me. But I have a soft spot for you. Always have, always will. I can go on for days about how you're the worst friend & how I'm the one always putting effort into our friendship, yet I can't imagine my life without you. Because even though I'm not one of your top priorities, you're the only one who has seen me at my worst & has still stuck with me. You read me like the back of your hand, even when we go weeks without talking. So yes, you're one of the worst friends I've ever had, yet you're also one of the best friends I've ever had & I'm extremely thankful for you. Make more time for me though, cuhs God knows you're gonna be super MIA once school starts for you. _l_

3:16 AM

Thank you for being the one person who will actually confront me about certain problems you have with me. I'm honestly so grateful to have you in my life & it feels so good knowing I have a #1 now. You & I have been through hell & back & in all honesty, I'd do it all over again. You're the best & I love you, despite our stupidass conversations about everything & anything. ^_^