4:02 AM

Fuck, I'm so confused with everything right now. Things would be a lot easier if you were with me & we could figure everything out together. 

I can't wait til you finally come.

12:24 AM

I can't determine whether you're good for me or not. I hate saying this, but yeah, this time it feels kinda different.

It's weird being this open with my feelings, especially with someone like you. I used to hate being this type of person. I always put up this front about being independent and I only relied on myself for happiness. But for some apparent reason, you make me happy. We make me happy. Maybe it's the distance. Or maybe you are good for me.

And maybe I'm good for you.

12:56 AM

You're smarter than this. You deserve so much more than what little she has to offer. You go around talking about how desperate some people are for wanting girlfriends when you're the one going after this one. How. Dare. You.

I hate you so much for this, yet I want to do everything to make sure you don't get fucked over. Be careful.

"Sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to how they used to be."

Well what if you give up right when things are about to turn around? It's like a double edged sword, isn't it? If you don't give up, you're only going to hurt more. You might be waiting for something to happen, only to have it not, leading you towards disappointment. But if you do give up right before things start going back to the way they were, then you'd be missing out on what was & what could have been once again. Hanging on for so long would seem like such a waste. 

I hate these 50/50-type decisions. That neverending battle between your brain & your heart. When you're stuck right in the middle of two things & you're constantly fluctuating between them. Decisions like these make me such an indecisive person & it frustrates the shit out of me when I put so much thought into them.

11:43 PM

If you’re gonna be a bitch about things, I’ll be a bitch right back. I’m done giving in all the time, trying to make things better between the two of us. Your happiness doesn’t mean anything to me anymore & I’m not afraid to play fire with fire now. 

Two can play at this game.